lost and Found
Posted: June 10, 2025
Recently I learned that an old friend of mine had taken her life about a year ago.
We were never the closest friends in the world, and we hadn't spoken to each other in a while, so I was surpised that her death hit me so hard. Though as I thought about it more, it made more and more sense to me.
She had a much greater influence on my life than she knew. I made some great friends in her Discord server, and she introduced me to what are now two of my all-time favorite bands: They Might Be Giants and Ween. She did all of this for me, but I never got to tell her how much it meant. How much she meant. I think that's why it hurt so much to learn of, despite us having grown distant.
There is a silver lining to this, though. Her death was a reminder of our mortality as humans, but instead of this driving me into yet another panic attack, it made me appreciate those I still have more than ever, and drove me to do something to be closer with those that I care about.
That brings me to the much more positive half of this post.
The Bird GC
I was once quite active in the avian community, as an avian myself. I owned and ran a server called the Avian International (which still exists but is run by my lovely friend Persephone) and made acquaintances of many a bird. For reasons I wish not to get into though, I fell more distant with these people, too. I would still DM a couple of them on occasion, but I had lost my community.
That's where the GC comes in. Created yesterday, I've brought 6 of my dearest bird friends whom I think will create a silly yet chill atmosphere into it, and it's been wonderful so far. Everyone gets along really well, and we've made some great conversation so far. The GC consists of myself, Persephone, Orion (the same one I've written about before), Erika, Tri, Veggie, and Zephery. If any of you are reading this, thank you for being my friend. You mean a lot to me and I am lucky to have you.
Note: If you're reading this, and you're a bird I did not invite to the group chat, it doesn't mean I don't care about you or want to talk to you. I wanted to keep the membership small, so I had to choose carefully. That being said, if you're a bird friend and you want to talk to me more, just let me know! I'd love to get more one-on-one time with lots of you but there are just so many of you feathered freaks :3
Socially speaking, I feel much better than I have in quite a long time, and I'm very glad I assembled these birds :>